And Not A Happy Ending of The Day..

After having lots of fun today, I have to send my Pa at the bustop in front of TS..he's going back to hometown..=( He will leave me for 2 days..;( Pa..I'll be missing you so much!! But I know that he go back because he have a plan..for us..=)

Another bad thing happen to me, when Mum called and keep complaining about Dad..Poor my Dad..I know you are not well,Dad..Poor thing that I can't be there to take care of you..=( Things that makes me more sad is when Mum said that she are not willing to take care of Dad anymore..God..What should I do now? Please enlighten Mum..Please open her mind..Please take care of my Dad..

My BFF Wedding a.k.a CS224 Mini Gathering

Today is a big day for my dearest friend,Ayu & her soulmate,5rz..I went there with my Pa..=) A bit earlier than my other friend, we had our food first then wait for others..

They came group by group..Firstly, I met the Matrix group (Naz,Mila,Amy,Nana)..We had never met since the convo day on Oct 2009! I heard that 1 of our friend,Annie, already got married and just had a baby recently..Big news that I never knew..hurm...

Then comes the Dip group (Fuzzy,Ainie,Topek,Fariz and lastly Ija)..Guys, long time no see! I'm glad that almost all of us gathered today..Some are MIA,but at least I had a chance to meet some of ex-classmate from BSc. BizComp at UiTM Shah Alam..=)

From our meeting, I got to jotted down 2 important date at the end of this year..because Mila and Naz are getting married soon!Huhu..And next year also will be a big day for my dear Ija..God bless you gals! What a surprise..=)

p/s: Mila=03/12/11@Malacca and Naz=17/12/11@Johore..

Alhamdulillah...

Last month, I went for 2 interviews..at ExxonMobil (HQ of Esso and Mobil petrol station) and CIMB HQ..After 2 weeks of interview at Exxon,I never receive any news and it makes me feel like I have no chance to get in there..But they are really good company,as I know..So when I got the interview at CIMB, I tought this might be my chance after I didn't get thru at Exxon..

After few weeks, I got a call..Exxon is hiring me!I'm really surprise that the interviewer herself call me to inform about it..Actually I applied for this job thru Jenjobs.com..Alhamdulillah,finally I got the better offer..Even it just a 1-year contract work,I believe it will be an opportunity for me to be exposed into a new environment..

And the more important thing that makes me happier, is my parents didn't stop me like before..Even mum still mumbling, I knew that she just worried about me..Because I have to move out from here,my hostel from my current workplace and rent out with somebody that I don't know at all. Mum, just give me your trust and I'l do the best for our family..Pray for me,Mum..

Another Surprise...

Last two days,while we went out together for dinner..He said that he already inform his mum about the big-day plan..And his mother say.."We'll discuss about it when you come back to home town.."

And he's going back to his home town (by plan) on this 15!God..I can't think..I can't think...it's cold in and out!

He Starts The Plan!!!

My Goodness..I don't know how to start the words..He starts to plan about our big days and I feel very nervous!=D

Guys..I've never done any saving for my big days..and I believe he's also about the same..But how can he told his dad that he want to make it true by the end of this year?? Oh my dear..what am I suppose to do?Is this considered a proposal from you?

Too many questions in my mind now..how I'm gonna tell my parents?How will they respond when they knew about it?How to handle the event since I'm alone?I mean,I have no other siblings and no good relatives to help..I think I've completely lost my words..

We knew each other on June 2010 and starts our serious relation approximately on August 2010..Less than a year and he already make this plan?I can't believe it!Dear..I feel like you suck out all the blood from my veins!huhuhu.....

Hate It!!

It's pointless for me to work here anymore!!Hate it!I'm a human, a normal human. Not a slave and I have my own way to talk with people. Not as rush as you without thinking about others!Damn it!!Huh!!!!

Love...

Can anyone explain to me what is LOVE? How to make the person you love to trust you for whatever you do when you are not with them? And how to make them understand how hurt your feeling are when they seems to be not trusting you for what are you telling them?


*p/s: Someone's wearing a couple ring with a quote.."Love should trust,promise,forever,truth"...

Back Again...

It has been a while since I jotted down my words here..Erm..just recover from bad fever few days ago..yet still have flu and cough..*sick*..Well..I think I've think to much of things until I feel really tired and I don't know what to do..How come I come to this position?Oh God..I really some refreshment..somebody please enlighten me..(!_!)

The Result...

It's done-the interview. I've been selected to be hired. Offer letter will be posted after CNY break. Good news right?But...

Mum is mum..Never change her mind to a positive way...hurm....all my effort gone with the wind..My heart is broken again..Before and after the interview, I can only cry..Before-just reach the place and I've been scolded by mum..too far she said..Actually only 3 min walking distance from LRT..After-still the same reason..

Stick with her decision, she didn't allow me to work there..Only GOD knows how hurt my heart is..(!_!) Could anybody please help me???????? I'm hurt!! Mama...................

Since I've told her I don't want to work here anymore, she asked me to go back hometown. "Work there if you don't want to work with this company anymore.No need to go to that new place.Just few hundred increment only..Have to rent a room also.Here you got free room..No need..Wasting money.."..GOD..feel like I can't breath.....

Will It Become True??

Finally, after weeks of trial,mum allow me to attend the interview as Assistant of Head of Customer Service Department at that new mall I've mentioned before..All thanks to Pa and the Head CS himself coz he really want to help me till he himself come to see my mum and have talk with her..Really thanks to you guys!

Well, now I only hope that mum won't change her mind until the day..and for sure, I'll bring her to the place to convince her more..=)

Wish me all the best! =)

Hajat by Haida

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NEW YEAR 2011

New year 2011 has just passed its 10th days...The date is changing time to time..But not yet for me..I mean, no changes for myself yet on this new year. It's just some new things happened, but still carrying the same things that happened last year..

It seems that I'm really tired to work here anymore..I really can't handle the situation..I know boss have some 'uninterested' feeling on me but he doesn't want to say it directly to me. But he is using a really 'heartsick' way to get rid of me from this company.

Actually I'm ready to leave this place as soon as possible..Good news, i"m already got an offer as Customer Service Officer at a newly renovated mall in KL, which offer me a better income from here. But the BIG problem now is Mum..She didn't allow me to leave this place yet. For her, as long as I'm working here, I will be safe. I don't have to pay for room rent, and I can just walk around 5 minutes to reach office. So save my budget for rent and transportation cost..

But Mum, for long can it last? Did you understand how hard it is for me to confront with this matter? Hurm....Each time I told her this things, she will say "Pack up your things and follow me to go back hometown.Get a new job there. Even with small income, your place, food and transport is free.."

Mum...when will you be able to understand me?.....I'm speechless...