For My Dear...

Suddenly this few days I keep on thinking about you. Just like you are always here by my side. I still can remember all the things that we had done together. All our memories here and there. Where had we gone together, what's our routine on weekend, how good your family treat me..All our memories,is like everywhere in my mind nowadays..

I have to say that I'm very lucky to have you as my special..You complete me, you cheer up my life. Seriously, I'm saying that with all my heart..But..you are no more by my side..And I'm the one who chase you away from me..=( I'm really hurt, but I have no choice..I have to do it..Dear...I still missing you..Swear to God,I still can't forget you..

I'm sorry that I have to hurt you this way..I will always pray for you..All the best in your life my dear..I don't think that I can turn back the time, so don't ever look for me again..Live up your life..Go and get a good spouse for yourself. I'm sure you will get a better person than me..I wish you all the best my dear..

And your will always here in my heart..and my heart will always goes on...(!_!)

A new...life?

It has been a while since I've been writing here...hurm...so many changes happen in my life this few months..I'm not sure should it be, or should not. I don't know if this is the best choice, or the worst in my life..

Mum..I wish u are happy now..Coz I'm not longer in a relationship with that guy..

Dad..I wish u will get well soon..Take care of your health..Be careful with your blood pressure..

Pa..thanks for always be by my side..Even it's hard for us, we manage to stay together..

B..I'm sorry for everything..I know I'm wrong..I've hurt you..but you don't have to know why I'm doing all this..All you have to know that I'm not a right person for you..

Uncle..I'm sorry coz I've broke your trust on me..

Auntie..I'm deeply sorry for not giving a second chance for your son..

Guys..I'm sorry that I can't longer spare a time with you all..

Amim..I'm sorry that can't hug n kiss u anymore..Grow up nicely my little baby..

Friends..I'm sorry for being away from everyone for a long time..

Sir..I'm sorry for sometimes I'm not doing my job properly..

Everybody..please forgive me..

I'm trying my best to live a new life nowadays..But it's really hard for me..And I'm really scared to think about my future..What will happen soon? I really have no idea..

Lost concentration...

I can't concentrate on my work..Damn it!*sigh*..what should I do??God...I lost my way..

Lonely...

It've been a while since I write a post here..So many problems happens nowadays..til I feel really hard to breath...like there's no way of happiness I can achieve..God,help me..I'm really upset right now..where should I go?what should I do?I have no idea..I'm really tired with all of this..really bored..I want to change for a good..

Yet, I need somebody to lend me a hand..I'm afraid that I can't do it alone..I'm really want to go back to what I am supposed to be..Not to be involve in this kind of lifestyle..God, I feel that I've already forget Your way..please..I want a real life! (-.-)

Why...

Why she don't like him?Why?Why don't she bless us?Mom...I really can't read your heart this time..Why you against our relationship?Did he ever hurt you?Or you just pretend not to like him because he's still a college student, and not working and have no money to spend for me?

Why mom??Why??I'm really sad..Always lost my mind because of this stupidness.Mom,I love him.He never hurt me,never betray our relationship.Even myself can't be so honest like him.Like I said in previous post,I've fall for someone even I've already have my special.Yes,my special is this guy that I really love.He know that I'm close with someone.yet he still love me and care about me.

Mom,this guy didn't mean to steal me from you.If you think he will take me away from you,you are wrong.He has no power to do that.You are my mother,the one who give birth to me.Nobody can separate us Mom..Even if I got married one day, I will still want you to live with me.But know...

I don't think I can have that kind of dream..Can I really get married with him?If yes,how can we live together since you seems to hates him so much..And if the answer is no,how was the end of our relationship?How is this suppose to be?Why is this thing happen to me?Why?Why?Why?????? (~.~)

Feeling Down...

I feel really down today..I don't know how and why I became like this. It's very tiring. I think I want to live alone. By myself only. No family, no friends, and no one else to take care about. So I'm free to do whatever I want to. I don't need to think about others.

But when I think about it, that kind of life is no meaning. I'll be very boring and lonely. I need my family. I do need my friends. And as a human being of course I do need someone to take care about.*sigh*

How to live happily together ever after? I have no idea. My dear virtual diary, this is the only place that I can tell everything. But can I really share with all my heart here? I don't really know..(^_^)

Boring....

It's a boring day..I feel really really very boring..everyday doing the same routine, having the same meal at noon, meeting the same people..haiz...I miss my previous job..enjoy,lots of friends,meeting different types of people..guys..miss you all...(^_^)