He Starts The Plan!!!

My Goodness..I don't know how to start the words..He starts to plan about our big days and I feel very nervous!=D

Guys..I've never done any saving for my big days..and I believe he's also about the same..But how can he told his dad that he want to make it true by the end of this year?? Oh my dear..what am I suppose to do?Is this considered a proposal from you?

Too many questions in my mind now..how I'm gonna tell my parents?How will they respond when they knew about it?How to handle the event since I'm alone?I mean,I have no other siblings and no good relatives to help..I think I've completely lost my words..

We knew each other on June 2010 and starts our serious relation approximately on August 2010..Less than a year and he already make this plan?I can't believe it!Dear..I feel like you suck out all the blood from my veins!huhuhu.....

Hate It!!

It's pointless for me to work here anymore!!Hate it!I'm a human, a normal human. Not a slave and I have my own way to talk with people. Not as rush as you without thinking about others!Damn it!!Huh!!!!

Love...

Can anyone explain to me what is LOVE? How to make the person you love to trust you for whatever you do when you are not with them? And how to make them understand how hurt your feeling are when they seems to be not trusting you for what are you telling them?


*p/s: Someone's wearing a couple ring with a quote.."Love should trust,promise,forever,truth"...

Back Again...

It has been a while since I jotted down my words here..Erm..just recover from bad fever few days ago..yet still have flu and cough..*sick*..Well..I think I've think to much of things until I feel really tired and I don't know what to do..How come I come to this position?Oh God..I really some refreshment..somebody please enlighten me..(!_!)

The Result...

It's done-the interview. I've been selected to be hired. Offer letter will be posted after CNY break. Good news right?But...

Mum is mum..Never change her mind to a positive way...hurm....all my effort gone with the wind..My heart is broken again..Before and after the interview, I can only cry..Before-just reach the place and I've been scolded by mum..too far she said..Actually only 3 min walking distance from LRT..After-still the same reason..

Stick with her decision, she didn't allow me to work there..Only GOD knows how hurt my heart is..(!_!) Could anybody please help me???????? I'm hurt!! Mama...................

Since I've told her I don't want to work here anymore, she asked me to go back hometown. "Work there if you don't want to work with this company anymore.No need to go to that new place.Just few hundred increment only..Have to rent a room also.Here you got free room..No need..Wasting money.."..GOD..feel like I can't breath.....

Will It Become True??

Finally, after weeks of trial,mum allow me to attend the interview as Assistant of Head of Customer Service Department at that new mall I've mentioned before..All thanks to Pa and the Head CS himself coz he really want to help me till he himself come to see my mum and have talk with her..Really thanks to you guys!

Well, now I only hope that mum won't change her mind until the day..and for sure, I'll bring her to the place to convince her more..=)

Wish me all the best! =)

Hajat by Haida

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