Heart Sick!

Yesterday evening, around 5pm my boss ask me for a talk about work and some personal things. For about an hour we're discussing so many things. But there are things that really makes me feel heart sick!

I don't know why they have to be jealous with me..Do I disturb you guys doing your work? I did back up you guys when you all having trouble, didn't I? What else you expect me to do so that you are willing to talk good about me? Why should you give such a nonsense info to boss?

Even if I do some stupid things, it never disturb my work. And I'll never let my personal things to disturb my work. And I'll never do a bad things in a place where I work. You guys never expect what will I do if I know all this things right? Be careful guys, I'm longer believe anyone of you. Even maybe not all is involve, but I can't trust anyone anymore for my own sake.

I've done so many things to appreciate you guys as my friends. But this is how you all treating me?? NO MORE TRUST from now on. I'm really feel heart sick, even boss said 'don't feel heart sick,k..'..Sir, I'm sorry for that. I don't think I can just let it be.

I've been working here almost 1 year, and I've done so many things to help you. I've tried my best to do my works so that you can satisfied with me. I've tried to make you proud of me. But I never notice that you will also check on my personal life. Sir, for whatever I've done in my personal life, is nothing to do with my work performance. I'm trying my best to help you Sir..I already fall in love with this place, to work here as your assistance, even I've been told that not everyone is willing to work just like what I've done for my work here.

Even some people saying that you are just taking advantage of me because I'm always doing the job specs that actually is not my responsibilities, I'm still doing it. For you Sir, as my boss..Because I know that you are a good boss that I may can't get outside elsewhere..But Sir, I still feel heart sick..until at this moment..And I keep on thinking, will you believe them more than me till you lose your trust on me? I wonder how..hurm..